THE SIMPLE THINGS THAT MATTER.(posted in my blogspot :9/22/2004)

I had such a beautiful time the last 2 days, just like an epiphany.
And my awakening just sank in tonight after I came across a blog that a friend wrote.
And I realised how emotionally freeing it will be to just count our blessings and not delve on the
things that really will not matter but we keep on trying to believe they do..

I had the opportunity to be able to deal with a lot of eye-opening moments recently.
I call it opportunity because I have always believed that anything that
happens that defies a person’s standards for being happy is an
opportunity to enrich one’s soul and that it’s meant to happen for some
reasons.
I’d like to apply this to a friendship which you tried so hard to keep and thinking that
because you wanted so much for it to flourish, maybe the world will conspire with you for it to happen. Just like the oversimplified version of the new-age philosophy that things are possible when you want to achieve them.
But then there are a lot of issues to consider that you have overlooked while you are in the process . And you start asking questions that somehow complicate the issues even more.

And at the back of your mind you wanted to let go, but you can’t. Because you still
believe that the universe will help you.
Other than that, everyday manifests the struggle and you realize what the heck is this all about?
How can you let another person desecrate your own concept of friendship?
This, to me, is the saddest point of my existence right now..

Everything I learned just now. And for me to be able to absorb its rationale, I needed
somebody to crack my brain open and extract the mindset of a hopeless cranium which still prays hard for that friendship to be saved…
It’s not what my emotion speaks of, good thing my will is stronger than my heart.

So I rest that case of optimism towards the shits.
I realised it’s not gonna do any good to the upliftment of my soul.
It still did enrich it, but I leave it to that level.

Time for me to move on..After all, we only realise one’s lost when
we can’t find them anymore…:)

I wrote this in the spirit of loyalty to my soul.
To hope that it be read in the same spirit….